I often struggle to find the balance of being open and honest and sharing too much. Nevertheless, in the past, I've avoided writing a post on this blog because I couldn't be super positive. In fact, I've had a really hard time putting the words into this post. I was all set to complain about how things hadn't gone as planned; and while I still feel like my summer was beyond chaotic, I'm choosing to write a post about thankfulness instead of whining.
If you read my post back in May, you know that I spent a lot of time in prayer and stepped out in faith when I decided to not continue teaching in Colorado. I also promised you that I would keep you updated as the journey unfolded. I haven't been the best at it, but see if you can find the story of my summer through the thoughts below.
30 Thankful Thoughts from the Summer of 2018
1. I'm thankful for the skills that my father taught me. During my first week of summer, I painted a house and earned the rest of the money I need for my trip of a lifetime in July.
2. I'm thankful for technology advances. During the same week, I was able to have two phone interviews instead of driving hundreds of miles one way for an interview.
3. I'm thankful for friends who push me to meet fitness goals. During my second week of summer, I walked a 10k race in Colorado and easily beat my goal time. It was so much fun that I'm already planning to go back next year.
4. I'm thankful that I found wonderful friendships in Colorado. During the same week, I was able to house sit for some good friends while connecting with other friends before I left Colorado. I was also able to return at the end of the summer for a really fun retreat with some of those friends.
5. I'm thankful for my parents letting me come home to live with them every summer since 2011 (after my freshman year of college). This was still the same case for about 2.5 weeks this summer even though they were in the midst of a crazy move.
6. I'm thankful for the house that I claimed as my home for 14.5 years. It may have been in the Middle-of-Nowhere, Kansas; but it was home. Two and a half weeks into my summer my parents decided to close on their house early, which meant saying goodbye to our home in just one week. It meant for a crazy last week in the house as we packed up all of my stuff to move to my grandparents' home and finished packing my parents' stuff. Yet I'm still thankful for all the memories in that home.
7. I'm thankful for my grandparents who were more than willing to offer me half of their garage to store all my stuff. So I pared my stuff down to the bare essentials that fit in the trunk of my car, and packed the rest of it away until a future date.
8. I'm thankful for the multiple friends in my hometown that offered for me to stay with them. When my parents decided to close on the house early, I had already committed to events in my hometown until the end of June. So for a week and a half, I lived in a friend's basement. It gave me time to catch up with the friend and her family. So I considered it a blessing.
9. I'm thankful for the 15 years of VBS I've gotten to help with/lead in my hometown. This year I once again received the opportunity to coordinate a VBS between three different churches, and once again I was truly blessed by the way God worked through it. Even though it was a ton of last-minute, crazy planning, I enjoyed the week immensely. God has displayed to me over and over that He is the one in control and that no matter how much I plan, He will do what He needs done.
10. I'm thankful for my extended family on my mom's side. The day that VBS ended I hopped in my car to drive up to Nebraska for a family reunion at my aunt and uncle's ranch. It was a wonderful and relaxing time with no pressure to do anything except enjoy time with family.
11. I'm thankful for a reliable car. Since May 18th, my road trips have looked like this: (each bullet represents what was traveled in one day.)
- Colorado to Northwest Kansas
- Northwest Kansas to Colorado
- Colorado to Northwest Kansas
- Northwest Kansas to Central Kansas to Northwest Kansas
- Northwest Kansas to North Central Nebraska
- North Central Nebraska to Western Missouri
- Western Missouri to Northeast Oklahoma
- Northeast Oklahoma to Western Arkansas to Western Missouri
- Western Missouri to Northwest Kansas
- Northwest Kansas to Northern Colorado
- Northern Colorado to Central Colorado
- Central Colorado to Central Kansas
- Central Colorado to Western Missouri
- Western Missouri to Southern Missouri
- Southern Missouri to Western Missouri
- Western Missouri to Northern Colorado
- Northern Colorado to Central Kansas
- And finally Central Kansas to Western Missouri
12. I'm thankful for my extended family on my dad's side. During the last week of June, I traveled to Oklahoma for a job interview (a follow up to one of those interviews from May) and was able stay with one aunt. Also on this trip, I was able to visit one of my cousins and another aunt and uncle in Arkansas. I appreciate that my family is always happy to see me.
13. I'm thankful for my parents' retirement. I have seen the stress just melt away from my parents as they have jumped into their new life.
14. I'm thankful for my two older sisters. After a lot of road tripping, I spent a few days staying at each of my sister's homes.
15. I'm thankful for grand adventures. As many of you know, I worked hard and received the opportunity to travel around Europe with my best friend in July. It was AMAZING. Granted not everything went perfect, but that's what makes it an adventure. (I'll post more about this trip in it's on story.)
16. I'm thankful for my best friend. I met this wonderful woman back in 5th grade (although we definitely weren't grown up women back then). We spent one weekend together before I even moved to her town, and we've been friends ever since. I love that we can live thousands of miles apart and still remain friends. I love that she is still my go to person when I need a hug or to talk to someone. I love that we've had so many great memories together.
17. I'm thankful for the ability to be flexible that I've developed during my teaching career. From the last weekend in June until August 1st, I was didn't sleep in the same place more than a few nights in a row. From July 9th until August 1st, I didn't spend more than two nights in one place.
18. I'm thankful for friends from high school. I was able to reconnect with some of those friends this summer and really enjoyed visiting with them.
19. I'm thankful for alone time and understanding family. At the end of July, I had to pop back out to Colorado for another dentist appointment (#19 out of 20 in the past 16 months. Once again a story for another post). While I stayed at my cousin's home, I showed up frustrated from a fruitless dentist appointment and had to leave early the next morning. So I only got to see one member of the household for like five minutes, but they were totally understanding in the fact that I needed a chance to escape and hide from all people. They were even willing to let me stay again this past weekend when I had to return for yet another appointment and managed to help me out with other hoops I was trying to jump through as well.
20. I'm thankful for college friends. I've gotten the chance to get together with a couple of these friends this summer, and I love the fact that I get to just be my true self with them. I can't wait for the next opportunity I get to see some of them (which thanks to my flexible jobs will hopefully be more often now).
21. I'm thankful for the church district in which I grew up. I was able to attend my umpteenth district conference with my parents at the end of July, and it felt like home.
22. I'm thankful to have a cousin who is just a couple months younger than me. I love that even though I was often mean to her when we were little we are still great friends today. It's awesome that I now live close enough to her to just pop down for a couple days.
23. I'm thankful for older friends who speak wisdom into my life. After receiving the news that I didn't get a job I really wanted, several friends were able to encourage me and help me to see that it was okay.
24. I'm thankful for marketable skills. When I got to the end of July and didn't have a job, I was really starting to worry a little bit. I mean as a responsible adult you have to pay your bills and be...well...a grown up. However, within a week of sending my resume to a wider range of jobs, I had two part time jobs.
25. I'm thankful for my sisters. I know I was already thankful for them, but they make the list twice. At the beginning of August, they were somewhat fighting over who I should live with between the two of them. While I know they only want me for my nanny skills (haha, I know that's not true), it's great to feel wanted.
26. I'm thankful for my brother-in-laws. Since I don't have any brothers of my own, it's nice to know that I always have someone to tease me. It's also nice to know that they are helping to watch out for me as well.
27. I'm thankful for a place to live. Remember how I said I didn't get the job I wanted, but I did manage to get two part time jobs? And how my sisters were fighting over me? Well I've moved into my sister's basement for the time being, which means I get to see family every day and be close by to watch my nieces grow up. I mean one of the main reasons for moving was to be close to family, right? Even if it wasn't originally my plan to be THIS close I'm extremely thankful for my sister and her family for welcoming me into their home.
28. I'm thankful for my parents. While they are at the end of the list, they are truly the best of the best. Throughout the craziness of life (especially this summer), they are always there for me. They've retired and are living on a tight budget, but they still help take care of me. They are always willing to listen when I need someone. They help me solve problems that pop up. They are just awesome (even if we don't always get along).
29. I'm thankful that I've learned financial responsibility. This week I spent a LOT of money on my teeth, and I've spent even more throughout the last year. However, because my parents taught me to save and not spend money I don't have, I was able to pay all of those bills without qualms. I've also been able to take all these crazy trips (with more in the works for the rest of the year) without any worries of how I will pay my bills. As my parents always told me when I asked them for money, "I've got some work you can do." Anytime I need some extra (or just some to begin) money, God provides more work to be done.
30. I'm thankful for my personal relationship with Christ. (Yes, I know He should be number one, but I was trying to go chronologically and some of these realizations are very recent. Like as I'm writing this recent.) I mentioned earlier that I had been struggling to write this post. One of the main reasons is because I want to use this blog to not just share updates on my life, but to show people how God is working in my life. Sometimes that is just plain hard. I love God with my whole heart, and I am beyond thankful for everything He has done/is doing/will do in my life. However, sometimes I'm just not very happy with the way He is working out His will in my life. I was all set to complain through this post because right now is one of those times. He is definitely stretching me out of my comfort zone and challenging me more than I would like. Nevertheless, tonight I choose to be thankful for all of these things and focus on Daniel 3:16-18 (see the ESV translation below).
Lately, I've claimed this verse in response to challenges. I may not be facing a fiery furnace or even that extreme of trials; but I know that God is able to bring about good in the midst of whatever may come my way. However, even if He doesn't work things out the way I want, I choose to trust that He knows best.
I hope those of you who follow this blog to keep up with my life are thoroughly satisfied with this update. For those of you just reading to see what I'm thankful for, I hope you've seen that even in the midst of trials, God is there. For those of you hoping for more about the ducks, well keep watching. Someday I will have the creative juices to continue that story.
**BUT if you made it this far in my blog without falling asleep or quitting, I want to leave you with one more thought:
I'm thankful for you. I'm a naturally introverted person who doesn't make friends easily. This fact has been emphasized and challenged through the last 8 years as I have gone to college, lived in Oklahoma for two years, lived in Colorado for 2 years, and now I live in my sister's basement. I've felt like every time I start to build those friendships that could last a lifetime God has said it's time to move on. I know He is pushing me in this way because in the past I have become too reliant on other people in place of Him; but some days it sure makes it hard to make the effort to reach out and make new friends when I don't know how long I'll be around them. All of this to say, I'm extremely grateful to all of you who love and appreciate me enough to read through my rantings. It takes a true friend (or insane person) to put up with my quirky personality. So thank you.
And remember have a QUACKTASTIC day!
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